I'm Just A Girl

2002-03-27T15:51:00.000-08:00

I've been neglecting this because of the new blog feature at Stuckeyville...too many blogs, not enough time! Ugh!

But...did meet an interesting person named Jon living in Seattle...hmmmm....we'll see.

2002-03-25T16:06:00.000-08:00

Oh. My. Gawd. I have been so incredibly busy that I cannot think straight. The good thing about it is, I don't have time to think about my dating dry spell! :) Plus, my 'monthly friend' came for a visit last night, and I am feeling like CRAP. Monday, Monday, da da...da da da da.

2002-03-21T07:19:00.000-08:00

Which Buffy Girl Are You? Find out @ She's Crafty

2002-03-21T07:16:00.000-08:00

It's all about me, baby.

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2002-03-21T07:15:00.000-08:00

Which Sex and the City Player Are You? Find out @ She's Crafty

2002-03-20T12:17:00.000-08:00

I am eating like a pig today for some reason. I am sooooo fuuuullll...UGH.

2002-03-20T11:14:00.000-08:00

Hey folks...will be busy for today and maybe tomorrow making improvements to this site. I am jealous of everyone else who has all those nifty thingies and such! Anyway, not much going on in my life anyway. The new receptionist who I actually like just got asked out by the Airborne Express guy. And here I was thinking he was interested in me. Not that I like him at all (not remotely), but it still kind of stings just a little.

CS

2002-03-19T07:01:00.000-08:00

Hot-diggity...I just stumbled upon the blog site for Wil Wheaton...funny because I had the huuuuugest crush on him in high school. Which reminds me that I am getting old old old. Still can't type too much because my thumb is killing me, but will catch everyone up soon.

P.S. Note to Self...need to call Athan re: tix.

2002-03-18T07:22:00.000-08:00

Eventful weekend, I must say. The highlight (or lowlight as I see it) is when I broke my thumb on Friday night. I am now typing at a speed of approximately 3 words per minute because I can't hit the space bar. Fun times!

2002-03-14T16:11:00.000-08:00

The question of the day: Can men and women simply be friends?

I ask this today because I have a very good friend, who is a male, let’s call him Joe. I am not attracted to Joe. I do not think Joe is attracted to me. We have a lot of fun together and I enjoy his company. Today, he was doing this little nervous gesture that his does sometimes, although I doubt he knows it; he leans on his elbow while sitting at a table and strokes the side of his head where his hairline starts. I just sat there, watching him, and for some reason I had this insane urge to rest my hand upon his while he did it.

So that got me to thinking: am I attracted to Joe subconsciously, and because he’s a friend I don’t want to recognize it, or was it just a really cute little mannerism that I was attracted to for a split second? So I did the ‘would I like to kiss him’ test. The verdict? No. So my oh-so-scientific finding: men and women CAN be just friends. With momentary lapses. :)

2002-03-13T10:58:00.000-08:00

Last night we had our first "house meeting", and it was all very "Real World"-ish. Ana getting mad because nobody is pulling their weight, Ryan getting pissed because he was missing '24', me just sitting there wishing it was over already. But at least we established some ground rules - mainly no drugs in the common areas. Thank goodness...not that I care what they do, but it **stinks**. Blech. Now I know why I've never tried pot.

2002-03-12T17:13:00.000-08:00

You know, I started this thing a couple of days ago, and I realize that so far there isn’t too much about me on here. Sure, you know that I’m in love with this Niall guy and I get freaked out about my keyboard-drawer, but that’s not really ME. So here’s the low-down stuff…if you are my friends reading this, you know already know all this, but let me know if I forget anything.

My name is Cara. I am 25, soon to be 26. I do not like getting older – and this started with my 25th birthday last year. I live in Phoenix, used to live in L.A., but I dream of living in London after taking a trip there (alone, may I add) and falling in love. It’s like this: I went to this city that I’ve never been to before and I felt like I was coming back home (thank you Steven King and Peter Straub for putting that into words for me!) I’ve been married before, have no children, have two doggies I call the terrible twosome. I drive a New Beetle, cyber green, named “Meep” that everyone says is “sooo me”. I am a fan of BBMak, and I know that many would consider them a boy-band, but I am not ashamed. I met them backstage at the Tonight Show (twice) and they are the nicest, down to earth ‘famous’ people I’ve met (the fact that they have quite lovely Manchester/Liverpool accents helps a little, too.) I am currently involved in a long-distance relationship…sort of. That’s a long story and I’ll explain at some other point.

Let’s see…my family consists of me, my younger sister, her son, and my mom. My dad died when I was 15, and my mom currently has a long-term boyfriend but no plans to ever remarry. There’s also my Grandad who looks like John Wayne, my Granmom who had a stroke 4 years ago and now lives in a home, and my uncle who is in prison and no one talks about.

I think that’s enough for the moment. You all will soon come to pick up on my little quirks (I say “cute guy” a lot, I am not sure why but I’m working on it.) I use “…” a lot too. It’s a stream of consciousness thing I think.

Talk later,
-C

2002-03-12T14:44:00.000-08:00

Have you ever had one of those days when every little thing just irritates the living hell out of you? It started out okay, this fine Tuesday morning in the Valley of the Sun. I should have known, however, when I got caught by the train on my way down Rural. By some miracle of city planning and traffic light timing, I made it to work on time, and the day started out with a bang – hey, I was busy!! Yay! Finally…but then…

My new keyboard tray arrives, and I get oh-so-excited. The old one belonged to my predecessor at this desk, and I am a little leery of the stains and various…things…that have accumulated over the years. (Does this make me a keyboard-drawer snob?) I get down on hands and knees to take off the old one, not caring one bit that I am in my almost-favorite black goes-with-everything dress and pantyhose (they already got a snag about an hour before hand and now were sporting a nice, long run.) Taking my handy little Phillips head screwdriver, I undo one, two, three…eight little tiny screws, and after much cursing, begging, more cursing, manipulation, and brute force, the thing comes off. A word of warning: apparently keyboard drawers are exposed to some pretty nasty conditions, because mine had all sorts of goopy black grease all over the tracks. Keep lots of wet-naps nearby.

Now that the old one was gone, it was time to put the new one on. After assembling it – and by this time I was thinking I was QUITE handy indeed – I place it underneath my desk for a few quick turns of the screwdriver…when I discover the new holes do not match up to the old holes. (Insert loud not-appropriate-for-work expletive here). Not only that, the “Einstein” that put together this desk in the first place has all these weird 2x4 things running all over the place so I can’t get a good fit anywhere. So now I wait for building maintenance to finish up their donuts and Jerry Springer to come over and fix the damned thing and look at me like I’m a stupid idiot.

So now I have no keyboard drawer (smart, forward thinking me threw the old one away) so my keyboard is up on my desk. I’m no rocket scientist, but typing at shoulder level can’t be healthy. So I raise my chair to compensate. Now my feet dangle, and the chair is stuck. I feel like I am 5 years old.

But other than that, life is just grand.

2002-03-11T10:37:00.000-08:00

Sometimes it works, sometimes it doesn't. This site, my life, etc. etc. Was going to go into a long explanation of my weekend, but instead will settle for this:

-Went out Friday night. Was forced to spend long, awkward evening with doofus ex-boyfriend thanks to mutual friend.
-Did the volunteer thing on Saturday for jdrf. Interesting. Lots of rich folks. Got to get dressed up, though, which was nice (good hair night. Cute valets :)
-Took the terrible two out walking a couple of times yesterday. Weather was perfect (mid-80's). Watched movies I've seen a billion times before...Hope Floats, Gone with the Wind, Devil's Advocate, Memphis Belle...a nice day, all in all. Very relaxing.
-I don't care for my roommates.

That's it. Oh, and I still am in love with Niall, shocker shocker, I know. Got an email from him this AM - he woke up to our song on the radio. Lovely.

Highlight of the weekend -- heard new Goo Goo Dolls song on the radio "Here is Gone".

2002-03-08T15:50:00.000-08:00

'Bout to head out the door for the weekend...hopefully will stay away from the computer until Monday. My eyes are starting to glaze over.

But first...will find out what the heck is UP with these dumb broken images!!!

2002-03-08T09:36:00.000-08:00

Thanks, Judi, for the pic. I, too, will miss the little kitties.

2002-03-08T09:04:00.000-08:00

Okay...kinda pissed at the moment because I just spent all morning writing this beautiful diatribe on the meaning of friendship and a bunch of other junk and now it's GONE!!! Aaaaahhhh! Stupid unreliable piece of crap computer. Shouldn't complain too loud...I am doing this at my place of employment after all.

So went to the Scottsdale Art Walk last night...boy it sure is nice to do new things once in a while, things that do not involve tequila shots. NM was seriously getting on my last nerve though...every two seconds complaining about how friggen hungry he was, how he didn't "get" the art, blah blah blah~. I know that AP was a little disappointed in his behavior too.

Check out this stuff:
The Amazing Kyle - Heaps of talent and loads of time :)
The Amazing Ed - I always fall for the fictional ones
Some creepy thing - jeez this scared me!

2002-03-08T08:50:00.000-08:00

Friday!!!

2002-03-07T15:00:00.000-08:00

Spent all day looking up information on Rocky Point - trying to coordinate a road trip down there a MONTH from now but already there are problems. Also trying to put together w/ Nick the birthday thing for Grace next weekend. I don't think it's a surprise - well, I hope not because I asked her which restaurant she wants to eat at! ha ha ha

So not much news on the Niall front today - exchanged a couple of emails early on but nothing since. Will not pester him about the visit...don't want to jinx it. Besides, if I have learned anything about guys, it's that they like to be the ones in control.

Really looking forward to volunteering at that Gala on Saturday. Need to fix my dress...small tear (nearly broke my heart!) Need to find semi-comfortable yet sexy and alluring shoes. Also need to be around $50 range...har dee har har.

I worry about stupid stuff lately. Like this...what if Niall DOES decide to show up, on a whim like he always says, and I **finally** am dating someone halfway decent that my friends like? Would I tell Niall that we have be "just friends" or would I dump the new guy for what I had in the past? Of course, this is purely hypothetical, since I am not even dating anyone, but still, What If?

Am really getting sick of stupid junk mail in my hotmail inbox. Make it stop, make it stop! Of course, it doesnt help that I am too darn lazy to report each one as junk mail - it's so much easier to delete it every morning. I wonder where I signed up to recieve so much of it though?

Highlight of the week so far: last night's episode of Ed. Followed by West Wing. Best night on TV, hands down bar none.

2002-03-06T15:14:00.000-08:00

Oh, lookee at the tests...and yes, I DO get **paid** to sit here all day!

Strawberry: 40/100 Pear: 20/100 Banana: 40/100 Tomato: 10/100 Lemon: 5/100

Take the What Fruit Are You? test by Ellen and Aaron!

2002-03-06T11:37:00.000-08:00

Ah, my very first post. Knowing me I'll get bored quickly, but you never know, right?

Today, as usual, is turning out to be a pretty boring day at work. The mail already came so I don't even have that to look forward to in the afternoon. I downloaded the new 'preview' version of Morpheus today, and it is so slow. I finally managed to download "somebody's cryin'" by Chris Isaak, but then I just got fed up. Maybe I will have more patience this afternoon. But boy do I love that song! Why Chris isn't more well known I have no idea, but I guess that's a good thing.

My birthday is in two months (the big 2-6, woo hoo) and I am trying to convince Niall to fly out here. He seems pretty up on the idea, but after a year of disappointments I'm not going to hold my breath. Grace seems real eager to meet him; well, I do talk about him an awful lot. Her man in Texas is trying to come over for her birthday next week - I hope that happens for her!

Ahhh...lunch time here. I think I'll hit a Fazoli's today, feel in the mood for some alfredo sauce.